if i had to end

i.

i am the cat with rabies you euthanized.

my happiness comes from
twenty different corners of your mouth -
and more importantly my happiness came
[and you did too] in correspondence
with the stray thunder
hissing and crying at our window.

ii.

i ask you if you have always enjoyed conquering
small countries and small hearts and you say "no" with silence
like i had asked the wrong question.

iii.

i was some kind of naked galaxy before you. i was some
kind of rotwood flute. and now -
i am hollow bones
or unidentifiable blood cells
burrowing my swollen feet in the sands of the moon.